The Power in a Winged Heart
“I think you should become a hypnotist.” was staring up at me from the Amazon slip on the floor of my ‘detox-box’, as my friends liked to call it.
It was a nondescript late summer morning in 2006. I was sweating in my Far Infrared Sauna in my Boulder, Colorado condo. I had just opened the pages of an intriguing book my little sister sent me. When her note fluttered out.
Honestly, in that moment, I wasn’t really focused on what I wanted to be when I finally grew up. (35 was still young, after all!)
The first random page I opened within the book had the most beautiful resemblance of my tattoo. My favorite symbol that had morphed in meanings throughout my lifetime of connecting with it; even more over the 15 years it had been absorbing into my skin.
And there it was, fluttering in to inspire my soul to believe, I can heal my life?
That seemed pretty unlikely. To almost everyone I knew. I was a lost cause since being under the towers on 9/11. And I couldn’t say I disagreed.
I was too tired to argue, after all.
Just because I was born to celebrity, grew-up in paradise, my life should have always been an easygoing adventure that led to my natural born successes.
Shouldn’t it?
It surely had to be written in the stars.
Right?
In reality, I am a very typical GenX woman who has been through whatever and managed to make it back out again, even better than when I started. There is now a phoenix, much larger and more bold than the little winged heart, emblazoned immortally on my side. Having survived compounding personal then global traumas, I am here to confess, life was never the harmonious lullaby it was first sung as.
It was 2018 when my husband admitted to his new doctor how suicidal he was. How nobody was safe around him. How he no longer cared about anything or anyone.
I sat there for 20 minutes listening to my husband spill his soul to this newly assigned physician, required to be seen by the VA. I sat there praying we would finally have a solution.
He had told his secret.
I was relieved not to be solely responsible for it any longer.
The problem was too big for just me. Even as his VA trained caregiver, I didn’t know what else I could do. I was truly proud of my husband for reaching out for real help.
Finally.
I was sure our lives would change.
“You just need to find gratitude.” the young doctor said from over the rims of his wire frames.
He even wrote it on a prescription pad. Like my husband could go pick up what was missing from his life at the pharmacy.
“Fuck gratitude, I just want to be happy.”
I heard mumbled as we left that small exam room. And I said a prayer he wouldn’t be among the 22 that day, or the next day, or the next…
That was my motivation. That was my reason. That is why I became a hypnotist.
Our mindsets are the only constant to blame or credit, for wherever we are and whatever is going on.
Hypnosis was his solution. It remains his solution. Hypnosis is each of our personal solutions.
He is now fully functioning in society. Taking community college classes. To face his fears with communication he has embraced photography and is even attempting public speaking. (Yesterday he won first place in a persuasive speech competition at his school!)
He is a different person today. In fact, the National Guild of Hypnotists has invited me to present a case study on my husband’s recovery process at their summer convention and educational conference in August.
Personally, I am finally me. Plain and simple. I am not so different from any other unique woman born between 1965 and 1980. I have transitioned through Oh Little Jennifer, Just Another Jen, and SuperJen, to simply being.
The one thing I know for certain…
“My mindset is mine to set”.
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